Wednesday, October 7, 2009

Scared

I have been terrified over the last couple of days whenever I thought of the still existing cancer mass in my mouth. It has been almost 4 weeks since the end of my treatment and it still is of significant size. It has been explained to me that it will take some time for the cells to die out but by now I was hoping for bigger results. I am scheduled for a MRI on October 27th and a follow up meeting for November 5th. I don't know if I can live with this fear till then.
Please continue to pray for the cure...

8 comments:

Wendy Broadfoot said...

Oh dear Olaf, I do pray every day that you will be cured. I only wish that the fear would subside, but I know that it is such an understandable reaction--my heart aches for you. Please hang in there knowing that ALL your friends and family are with you.

Laura said...

We are all with you. Is it fair to say we're all probably a little scared too? But we know you too well. We know you are young and strong and are going to beat this frickin enemy. We don't think it. We KNOW IT!

gina said...

Fear is a very powerful emotion. I pray that you will continue to challenge this demon with courage and persistence.

David et Delphine said...

We all think about you, Olaf. Hang in there! As a marathon runner, you went through the famous "wall", the finish line is close to you now, the recovery as well! All your friend are along the road to encourage you, to support you to the victory!

Jon Buller said...

I wish i knew more what to say O.
I wish I was there - I am praying for you. Praying against the fear, and praying for your healing too.
Jonny B

Astrid said...

Of course you can! You have for so long and you will! Your body went through so many exhausting procedures. give it some time to recover and become stronger and you will see that once that's done it has the power to take care of the knot in your mouth. Your mind is already in a stronger state than your body. Keep fighting! Love you.

Sandi said...

Praying for you for complete healing, and for the fear to subside. I'm picturing you drop kicking that fear with strength and determination. Fear does not get to win. You do, and you will, cuz you are going to be victorious over this. That's my vision for you. Peace...

Laura said...

Hi Olaf

I'm up late. Can't sleep. Just wanted you to know I'm thinking about you and willing enough time to pass to let your body purge the bad stuff out. In our dreams there's a magic cure. In reality it's a long fight and you're through the worst of it. Enjoy the small victories of each new accomplishment and know that you are entering the home stretch of this fight.