Thursday, October 29, 2009


The scan is done. We don't know the outcome until next Thursday but it's a step closer. Angela was working Tuesday night so David was kind enough to give me company at the hospital.
The picture is taken, now we just wait.
They also took my feeding tube out on Tuesday morning. The truth be told it was extremely painful. I actually went into a shock from the pain shortly after. By today things are pretty much healed and there is hardly any uncomfortableness left.
Kevin came to visit me last night. It was great to see him again.
Most of my thoughts during the day are focused on next Thursday. I am still anxious about the results. I still have a tendency to assume the worst outcome. Angela and some of my friends have had the courage to say that they think that things will be positive. Of course I know that nobody can say for sure, but it does feel good to get these moments of hope. I am trying really hard to get on board with that but I fail more often than not. I always feel that damn growth in my tongue that worries me.


gina said...

Who ever invented worry anyway?!? And what's on the menu now that the feeding tube is history? Looking forward to sharing the evening together tomorrow!

Wendy Broadfoot said...

I am soooo happy for you, that Tuesday is over, now to get through next Thursday. Please try as hard as you can to think positive thoughts--the mind can play such a huge part, but I know that it is much easier said than done. I am sure that I would be the very same, so am thinking good thoughts for you!

Richard said...

With "failing more often than not", its the "not" that you have to focus on. Olaf, your spirit through all this has been indomitable and the foundation of your journey. It uplifts you AND us, and is what you can depend on to get back to the way things were, and they WILL get back to the way they were. The only difference between "BC" and "AC" is the depth of understanding you have acquired concerning about setbacks and adversity. "Quo Vadis" still awaits your creativity. "These Moments of Hope" would be a good title for a song - about how the love and support that people close to you can carry one through just about anything. You've been through it. Now give those thoughts to a character to sing.
I'm still here ... and always will be ... just knowing that great things are still ahead!
Love to you both!

Laura said...

Looking forward to Thursday with great anticipation. I'm so excited for the doctors to give you the positive feedback we've all been waiting for. It's not easy to be patient, but it will be behind you soon.